I don’t keep up with celebrity culture much anymore, but one day recently I heard a snippet of Oprah retelling a statement that Megan Markle had been guided by the Royal family to just be 50% of herself.
Oprah asked her, “How are you going to live like that?”
Something about that story resonated with me. I’ve felt that way before. I’ve lived at 50% before when I wanted so badly to be 100. No one has told me verbally to dial it down, but sometimes the enemy of our souls will make us doubt our abilities, fear what others may think of us, or cause us to second guess ourselves.
There is a word that writers use a lot called imposter’s synndrome. Imposter syndrome is loosely defined as doubting your abilities and feeling like a fraud. There’s no room for imposter’s syndrome in the Kingdom of God. He’s given us one life and we are not promised tomorrow. We can’t waste any time not using our gifts and abilities because of doubt.
We must each do what God has called us specifically to do not looking to the left or to the right, only towards the path that God has said, “this is the way, walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21
I don’t know what God has made you to do, but I know He’ll give you the strength to overcome any fears related to it. (Maybe it’s sharing the gospel, maybe it’s using your talents in a new way, maybe it’s standing up for what’s right in a delightfully different way).
I have personally been given a glimpse that life is short and we must not put off to tomorrow what needs to be done today. Two years ago yesterday my husband and I took an early morning somber ride to Methodist Hospital to support my 43 year old sister-in-law as she had a cancerous brain tumor removed. That long day in the dimly lit waiting room, surrounded by family and friends, I journaled and made up my mind that I was ready to seize the day and stop wasting time.
If Paige taught me one thing, it was give it my all while I still can.
So, two books in one year may seem a little extra to some people, but for me, its grabbing hold of the time to complete what I’m here to do before it’s gone.
There’s a quote by Anne Lamott that I read this weekend that sums all of this up for me and I hope inspires you to take today by the horns and the first step toward becoming 100% who God is leading you to be.
“What if you wake up some day, and you’re 65, or 75, and you never got your memoir or novel written, or you didn’t go swimming in those warm pools and oceans all those years because your thighs were jiggly and you had a nice big comfortable tummy; or you were just so strung out on perfectionism and people-pleasing that you forgot to have a big juicy creative life, of imagination and radical silliness and staring off into space like when you were a kid? It’s going to break your heart. Don’t let this happen.”Anne Lamott